alone..:) ANESTHETICS...

then, she began to breathe, and live, and every moment took her to a place where goodbyes were hard to come by. She was in love, but not in love with someone or something, she was in love with her life, and for the first time, in a long time, everything was inspiring....

Being alone is the best part because no one can hurt you but only yourself which is though justified. Loneliness is far more better then the fake relationships around you who pretend to be your care takers. It is the best anesthesia from all the worst parts in your life. Standing alone doesn't mean that you are weak or you have an isolated kind of personality but it means you are strong enough to handle everything by yourself rather then depending on the people who are masked. 

When we became habitual for being alone, we can be with others without using them as a mean of escape. its your road you have to walk alone in any way, others may walk it with you but no one can walk it for you.

The capacity to be alone, Is the capacity to love!!!
It may look paradoxical to you, but its not. It is an existential truth; only those people who are capable of being alone, are capable of love of sharing, of going in the deepest core of another person; without possessing the other, without becoming dependent on other, without reducing the other to a thing and more over without becoming addicted to the other.

postulate...

English Translation..

“O Son of Adam!

I desire something
and you desire something
but only what I desire occurs.

If you submit yourself to my desire i.e. obey Him,
I will be sufficient for you in your desire.

If you do not submit yourself to me (by disobeying Him),
I will tire you in
what you desire
and (at the end of the day) only what I wish happens and occurs.”

NO SECOND CHANCES...!!!

"The more chances you give someone the less respect they will start to have for you. They will begin to ignore the standards that you have set because they will know another chance will always be given. They are not afraid to lose you because they know no matter what you won't walk away. They get comfortable with depending on your forgiveness. Never let a person get comfortable disrespecting you"

The old adage is, “Forgive and forget.”

 I always take forget in the sense of forgetting those people who used to hurt or betrays without thinking of giving them any other chances.

There are venomous people on this earth. Most people are out for themselves, they play to their own agenda. Having these people in your life will only be detrimental to you.

It’s like Hillary Clinton said, “You can’t keep snakes in your backyard and expect them to only bite your neighbours.” Eventually, those snakes are going to bite you, poison you and destroy you.

If you betray me, we are done.

Nothing dramatic, no epic fight, no screaming, no crying. You’re just not going to be in my life anymore and that’s the end of it. Plain and simple. 

Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice? Shame on me. The first time a person stabs you in the back, you couldn’t have seen it coming,the second time leaves you no excuse. If you forgive someone for a harsh deception, you’re only inviting that person to do it again.

It is said that only 10% is the actual pain, rest 90% is self-induced!!! 

Just by forgoing a person's mistake and accepting them back is your stupidity and definitely their gain.

You are here to take care of your life and not be a reformer, unless you have taken oath that way!! beyond certain point, you should let go of those person from your mind. You need to accept whatever has happened with you and move ahead with better hopes. Nobody is strong by birth, its the circumstances which hone your emotion handling skills. 

Please do stay away from that so called "loved ones" so that you don't have to keep a tab on their daily routine or happenings of their daily life. Then slowly start ignoring them or meeting them less and gradually cut off from their contact. Train your mind that not knowing or knowing about those is not going to make you any good. Be INTACT!!!

to restore all the broken one's out there!!!

I like broken people, those one who are still some how managing to stand up on their feet.

Struggling against the past, 

Dreaming about the future, 

They keep looking for the lost pieces of themselves in every soul they meet, and its truly beautiful when you realize...

A piece of you which you thought had become useless, fits perfectly in them!!!

I know that they are not bitter, they are sad though but it is a hopeful kind of sad, the kind of sad that just takes the time. I think these kind of people are rare to find may be they are the saddest but they always try hardest to make other people happy because they know what it's like to feel absolutely worthless and they do not want anybody to feel like that.

THE MOST BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE WE HAVE KNOWN ARE THOSE WHO HAVE KNOWN DEFEAT, KNOWN SUFFERING, KNOWN STRUGGLE, KNOWN LOSS, AND HAVE FOUND THEIR WAY OUT OF THE DEPTHS. THESE PEOPLE HAVE AN APPRECIATION, A SENSITIVITY, AN UNDERSTANDING OF LIFE THAT FILLS THEM WITH COMPASSION, GENTLENESS, AND A DEEP LOVING CONCERN. BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE DO NOT JUST HAPPEN!!!

Time indeed is the best cure in itself it can eventually heal everything broken. According to me 

"We love in mysterious ways, It is both beautiful and monstrous".

 Depends which you choose after being broken. Keep telling yourself that the monstrous part is never going to take away the beautiful one because that will depict your upcoming life whether its going to be pure or sinful. Keep reminding yourself that their is no use in hopeless pleas of trying to make someone stay. 
My friend said to me that: The one's who broke your heart are the only one's who can fix it!!! Accepted because for that certain moment you were feeling devastated. But the fact is God is there, He is the best healer. Don't you know that God cares about every single part of your life. He knows what is more better for you. My recommendation is never ever try to swim in the ashes of the bridges you have burned, let it go, never keep holding on to something which hurts and keep you broken.

"You are too young to be that much sad" :)

Perhaps

No one is broken beyond repairs, May be the scars are big and the pain is visible, but then THE SUN SHINES.. AND HAPPINESS RAINS.. All you have to do is RE-PAINT yourself!!!

He wants to bring healing to your mind; He wants to help you overcome emotional pain; He wants you to feel good physically and have plenty of energy...not be worn-out from sickness.

Read more at http://www.christianpost.com/news/the-lord-is-your-healer-130001/#S21zkPVYyMc24DEH.99

So many assume...so little know..!!!

"Always be careful of what you hear about a women, Rumors either comes from a man that can't have her or a women who can't compete with her"

It’s been said, “knowledge is power.” Unfortunately, many people like to spread damaging information or intimate details about others, whether true or not. This is what is called rumor. It used to be that people called rumor, “dishing the dirt.” Whatever it’s called, people use rumor to hurt people, in order to feel good about themselves, and to feel like they have power over others.

The most dangerous part about rumor is that  it  steals another person’s reputation.

The most dangerous part about rumor is that it steals another person’s reputation. A reputation is very fragile. When you gossip, you are helping to destroy something extremely valuable. 

We don't have to be good friends with everyone — or even like everyone. But not liking another person doesn't give someone the right to spread rumors, gossip, or put downs. Acting like this shows a lack of courage. It's a false way to gain popularity or status in the group. 
Rumors can make people upset, angry, or even depressed. No matter what people are saying about you, keep your head high and remember who you are. Don't let other people determine your value in this life and stay strong, no matter what people are saying about you. Make sure to spend time with good friends, get enough sleep, and to maintain your self-esteem in spite of what people are saying about you.Real popularity comes from feeling comfortable with ourselves. People who are truly well liked treat everyone with respect and fairness. They don't put other people down or try to gain power by having "followers." They're confident and sure of themselves, so they don't have to resort to this kind of behavior.
You may be so busy worrying about how to convince people the rumors aren't true that you haven't spent time taking care of yourself. Well, you've got to focus on yourself -- instead of the meaningless hurt caused by others -- if you want to go back to having a happy, healthy life.

epic !!!

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Goyan keshk aqbat taskeen ast

Awal shor ast aqbat namkeen ast

Har chanz aasiyat sang zeerey

Ee surat-e-beqrar barbin ast

Haal e dil ye dekhta tu ja

Haal e dil ye dekhta tu ja

Yaar e mann, yaar e mann aa

Yaar e mann, yaar e mann aa

Hai diyar e dil sulagta sa

Hai diyar e dil sulagta sa

Yaar e mann, yaar e mann aa

Yaar e mann, yaar e mann aa

Aik pal jo hai judai ka

Ye nahi hai bewafai ka

Aati jaati dhoop aur chahun

Gham agar hai narasai ka

Yaad bhi hai ik sahara sa

Yaad bhi hai ik sahara sa

Yaar e mann, yaar e mann aa

Yaar e mann, yaar e mann a

Be original!!!

"I am figuring out which parts of my personality are mine and which ones I created to please you!!!"

Sometimes we try to show the world we are flawless in hopes that we will be liked and accepted by everyone, but we can’t please everyone and we shouldn’t try. The beauty of us lies in our vulnerability, our complex emotions, and our authentic imperfections. When we embrace who we are and decide to be authentic, instead of who we think others want us to be, we open ourselves up to real relationships, real happiness, and real success.

There is no need to put on a mask. There is no need to pretend to be someone you’re not. You have nothing to prove to anyone else, because…No one can play your role better than you and You are the best when you are you. Always believe this. Remember, you were alone when you were born. No one else came with you. So since the first day of your life you were alone and even on the last day of your life you'll be alone so how can you expect any other person to play your role? Only one person knows yourself better and its only you. So only you can play your role better, no one else can do it anyway.

You don’t need a standing ovation or a bestseller or a promotion or a million bucks. You are enough right now. You have nothing to prove. Care less about who you are to others and more about who you are to yourself. You will have less heartaches and disappointments the minute you stop seeking from others the validation only YOU can give yourself.

“It is none of our business what other people think of us.”

You have a relationship with yourself 24/7, there will never be another person as unique as you. We are all unique in different ways. Loving ourselves is vital for happiness and fulfillment. I believe everything will fall into place if you love yourself unconditionally. It is not ego. You cannot give to others, what you don’t have yourself. Self love also attracts people who love you for you.

To myself, I love u with all my heart.

What goes around, comes back around!!!

https://www.viddsee.com/video/ripple/olw5k

A Simple Act Of Kindness Creates An Endless Ripple...

What goes around comes back around" or "as you sow, so shall you reap" is the basic understanding of how karma, the law of cause and effect, works. Life in other words is echo and nothing more, what you give you will get, what you send out comes back, what you see in other exists in you. No one has ever become poor by giving. Do good and good will come to you. Don't waste your time in revenge those who hurt you will eventually face their own karma and vice versa. When a bird is alive it eats ants, when the bird is dead ants eats the bird, time and circumstances can change at anytime. Don't devalue or hurt anyone in life. You may be powerful today but remember karma is more powerful than you; so be good and do good!!! You can always try to do simple acts of kindness on your daily bases like; try helping

• your family members in many ways,
• your friends,
• your neighbors
• the disabled ones in your surroundings; you can also do small acts of kindness like
• helping the needy
• try to build confidence in others
• praise generously
• donate in natural disasters
• drive responsibly
• offer food to the beggars 
• visiting the person who is ill and hospitalized
• give small gifts as a token of appreciation if anyone helped you out in any matter
• donate to charities
• give positive vibes and so on...

and if you can't do anything from the above list the smallest act of kindness which you can do is to SMILE and make others smile. TRY TO BE THE MAN IN THE QUEUE...

Can We Auto-Correct Humanity?

https://vimeo.com/108002285

I totally agree with this, no doubt that technology is so amazing and fascinating but now we spend hours and hours in our rooms instead of sitting with family and especially annoying our parents and grandparents, who use to give lots of time to their families when they were young. We are hurting our relations. Whatever happens whether; it is weather or a new dress or anything like we are sad, or happy, we take selfie and upload it and then start typing and reading comments, that is the wrong way. We should go out and share the moment, we should actually live that moment instead of trapping ourselves. Everyone is faking in this world , they pretend that they are satisfied with their life but in reality they are all like broken mirrors . It's our time we have to start like from the very first day of life . We should get closer again, technology is gradually separating us from natural things. Learn to communicate with others. Find those you can communicate with, and exchange ideas. Take some time off from social media and appreciate your real space and real people. Social Media has it's place, but it cannot be the be all and end all! Social media and technology has it's purposes and limitations. There are times when FB & other types of technology can assist us and there are times it helps to distract and deter us from our attentions, intentions and work that has to be done. It becomes a pacifier for some who compare themselves to others and use this technology negatively instead of for positive growth and improvement. I had a a friend who lived on it practically 24/7 and it nearly destroyed her and in the process it negatively affected her relationships to family, friends and her loved ones who no longer felt the significance of her in their life by how she made the social media her priority and focus. She utilized it for the wrong purposes and cast aside that which was real, tangible and used to bring joy into her life but just like her there are many others who sit next to each other doing the same instead of conversing, they use their I- to I-phones and apps to chat instead of having significant meaningful eye-to eye contact!. People must realize how important time is and how we will spend it to make moments not just a one click photo but a memory that can never be delete or corrupt . People should embrace all the natural surroundings not a bunch of simulations. People should embrace persons, real person not an emoticon, family should embrace children not a skype. This is the awful truth about innovation they are making us near to each other yet too far. I did bought one simple mobile just for answering calls. I did used it for one week that week it was the most longer week in my life. I got plenty of time can't know what to do in the first day but i did set plan for the next day and i did really had such nice time. Now my plan is to use the social media only twice a week and enjoying the rest of the week with the loved ones. Believe me the life more nicer than those screens! But still i am not denying the fact that the social media is important for communications for only one hour a week. Everywhere you look, people are all looking at their phones, texting, e-mails etc. For heaven sake start communicating with people; the phone should only be used for emergency purposes. Nobody talks, this is a sad world, smile to someone and talk to them, this world can be a better place by communicating with the person beside you. Love talking to people!!!

#cut#so far the ever best..

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"Cut"

I'm not a stranger

No I am yours
With crippled anger
And tears that still drip sore                           

A fragile frame aged

With misery

And when our eyes meet

I know you see

I do not want to be afraid

I do not want to die inside just to breathe in

I'm tired of feeling so numb

Relief exists I find it when

I am cut

I may seem crazy

Or painfully shy

And these scars wouldn't be so hidden

If you would just look me in the eye

I feel alone here and cold here

Though I don't want to die

But the only anesthetic that makes me feel anything kills inside

I do not want to be afraid

I do not want to die inside just to breathe in

I'm tired of feeling so numb

Relief exists I find it when

I am cut

Pain

I am not alone

I am not alone

I'm not a stranger

No I am yours

With crippled anger

And tears that still drip sore

But I do not want to be afraid

I do not want to die inside just to breathe in

I'm tired of feeling so numb

Relief exists I found it when

I was cut

Human Beings; WE HAVE DARK SIDES....

"Demons don't sleep under your bed, they sleep inside your head"

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Demon of lust, demon of fear, demon of sarcasm, demon of sins, demon of bad deeds, demon of greed, demon of suspicious etc all are hidden demons among ourselves. All these demons are sleeping inside us it depends on us which one we awake. Beware if anyone of them will take control over us it won't go to sleep again and will destroy you in many unexpected ways. Demons which makes you sacrifice your happiness and smile though! you must be so very careful while waking anyone of them or else you will face the consequences for sure. The one you will wake up it will make your nights sleepless, gives you wounds that don't gush blood and your soul full of scars. It changes you inner to outer that much you don't recognize your own self. It will turn your humanity off. On the other hand it makes you feelingless and emotionless. It will tortures you, haunts you all the time like a creepy nightmare. You will feel that your soul is dragging on the rough surface and above all no one is their to help you out. You will get stuck in the darkest room of your life with no way out. These demons are so pious once they are awake they will follow you throughout your life. They will take control over your mind and eventually switch of your conscious. How to fight them back is the question? 

Positivity and negativity  is a universal law. Both works side by side. Allah is there, so do the devil, so is the good in you and bad in you. Nobody is perfect. Matter of fact is that which you choose the demon or the angel. If you choose angel within you it will lead you to your inner peace on the other hand if you choose demon within you it will lead you to self destruction. So choice is yours! Because you are always in a war within yourself for right and wrong. There are devilish thoughts emerging even in most angelic minds. Its typically your strength and choice which one you resist and which you don't. 
 

In my opinion you should never shudder or get indulged with your demons ignoring the angels in you. It depends on you how you battle them out. Always stand up and fight back and never let them take control over you but conquer them. Be a winner in this fight of yours.

"And so it is, that both the Devil and the angelic Spirit present us with objects of desire to awaken our power of choice"

                                                                 RUMI

                                                                       

LIVE IN THE MOMENT....

it was all dry and arid, All hopes of spring were shattered and out of nowhere

 "IT RAINED IN SUMMER..."

 Every relation change with time no matter how strong it is! Its in the nature of human beings. They are adaptive to everything new which attracts them. To be constant is not even in the nature prevailing around us. If someone claims that their relation with you will remain same at all times they must be misinterpreting it with their present feelings. Never attach false hopes to it. Besides;  its not even the fault of that person, its simply a  thing of nature no one should be blamed on this because change is constant. What we usually do we trust the words keeping the fact aside. Due to this we get hurt sometimes. Hopes are attach to words and when we come across the fact that nothing in permanent we start blaming the person. We feel that may be they did this on purpose which is wrong. My point is that you should follow your mind and your heart both at the same time. Feeling grief, agony or misery afterwards is not acceptable. Try to live in the moment rather than making future plans, thinking that all of your expectations are going to be come true. 

• Keep balance in life.
• Stop thinking about the future.
• Stop blaming.
• Stop expecting alot from other, may be what they gave you was all what they have!       
• Be a giver rather than a receiver.
• Let go of with regrets and grudges.
• Stop being sad for the upcoming life focus on your present or you will loose what you have right now.
• Start counting your blessings. 
• Take a new start.
• Feel in the moments.
• Dance in the rain.
• Wish on dandelions.
• Eat chocolates.:)
• Believe in magic.

                                                                                                                       Be Happy!!!

SAYING "No"...!!!

Only the strongest can endure isolation for having the strength to say "NO"

No itself is a full fledged sentence. It does not need any clarification. According to me it is the most honest word in the entire dictionary. The one who has the ability to say no is the one who captured all the fears within him or herself. Besides this we should be sure of that while saying no, we are not saying yes to ourself. All those persons who are true to themselves are always true to others similarly. Never cripple the relationship between you and you by being dishonest to yourself while not having the courage to say no. If you have the strength to say no then never bother to justify it to people because acceptance is easy to handle than rejection, so is no. We must say no to doing things out of obligations, thereby; cheating those important to us of the purest expressions of our love.

Knowing...!!!(to my friends) ;)

I know I am hard to handle, some days I am all smiles and affections and then other day there is nothing , I want to be more quiet and lie in bed, prefer to be alone.Sometimes I get angry on stupid things and won't want to talk to you; other days I'll think you are the most perfect person in the world! Sometimes all what matters is you; other day I want myself to get the same acceptance. Sometimes I am all honest to you; the other day I have the thousand brilliant lies for the question: how are you?Please do not give up on me. I know its not that much easy but

I WILL ALWAYS COME BACK TO YOU!!!

LOVE HUMANLY...:) (dedication)

 Why we should ever give up on a person, We would give up everything for???

 

I can never digest particularly this fact of humans. We are not animals that one day we used to be with someone and the other day their is nothing. How could one even thinks like that? I wonder. I never believed on the saying: Let them go, if they return they were always yours. I can't figure it why you let them go at the first place? Relationships are not meant to be gain experiences, they are their just to be in love.

"But if they are willing to go than let them go do not be materialistic because if you truly love than your happiness lies in their happiness"

what the heck is that, this kind of stupid counseling you used to hear is nothing but a piece of crap though! What I am trying to say is be selfish, be impatient, be materialistic because love is to get, not to let go of. And even if a point comes that you love someone and all you find is pain and hurt, never let go of keep trying, keep holding on because with time everything will make sense eventually. If you love something your natural instinct is to hold on to it. What I really mean is that when you love someone you do not have to look for the faults, do not look for the answers, do not look for mistakes. Instead you fight the mistakes, you have to accept the faults and you must over look excuses. " THE MEASURE OF LOVE IS WHEN YOU LOVE WITHOUT MEASURES". So if you find someone who makes you smile, who checks up on you often to see if you are ok, who watches out for you and wants the very best for you, do not let them go keep them much closer and never take them for granted. People like that are hard to find!!!

INNER CHILD...a part of you!!!!

Everyone has a child inside.No matter what your age is you have a part that is CHILDISH, which is full of innocence, love, stupidness and most of all cuteness.That part of you must be nurtured from the people closer to you as it only comes out infront of the people you are most comfortable with.Its that part of our personality which is more positive and makes us stop while becoming a monster.Mostly people do not want that part of you to be nursed while saying; Grow UP! or be mature.But what i recommend is never let anyone destroy that part in you because if that part is crushed you can never be same as before.Try to be with the person who enhances this part of you. Who feels happy to see a child in you rather then taking it out from you because that is the person who loves you irrevocably and unconditionally.So love to be childish; to be stubborn at times; to act stupid; to feel innocent because only you have the authority to decide what is good for you!!!

    Feel proud to be childish...:) <3

Reality of "LIFE"...

 Roundabouts, eat and be eaten; and then there was light, Drip, Drop...noise, noise everywhere...and there was LIFE staring into your eyes!!!
Life is  not as simple as it looks. It is full of ups and downs though what it makes it more difficult are the negative people in it. The people who are always judgmental. Who judge you from your words rather then your actions. They only believe whatever is visible to them, beyond thinking that there is always a hidden part of a person which is more dominant than the visible one. Inside every person u know, is a person you do not know. Further more they assumes that they are the pain taker and you are the pain giver. They always try to mock a pain, they never endured; to make you guilty. They make you feel that you are the revenge taker too but they are unaware of the fact that the revenge takers are better than then the ones who keeps their heart stuffed with grudges. But no matter what people or life gives you take it with a SMILE because their are other people prevailing in your life too. Those relations and people are worth melting for. They are the ones you want in your life forever. So never let them FADE INTO NOTHINGNESS. As humans we ruin each and everything we touch but make sure it do not effect those people who are everything to you; the ones who really RE ARRANGE YOU!!!

 "In the end they will judge you, Allah will justify you!"

DISCOVER YOUR "DESTINY"....

Sometimes you feels that you are standing on edge of a cliff filled with internal darkness, feeling stifle more and more. You are just waiting for a ray of light that can enlightened you internally, a ray which can lead you to something peace giving, something comforting, something beautiful, something which can accept you as who you are, something who see perfection in your flaws; matureness in your childish behavior; sadness behind your smile; silence in your words; tears behind your sparkling eyes; trust you without evidence; love you without reason; and

                   that something is your Destiny....

 

A GLIMPSE OF LIFE THROUGH MY EYES...a journey from shallow to deep!!!

"I got mature with the damage not with the time"

and What I mean is humans are fragile creatures made up of broken heart and broken promises all together. I have heard from someone that cigarette burns, alcohol kills but so do the "Words" indeed. Its always words that undress you. But for instance you are your problem and you are your solution perhaps what I figured out is that much of your pain is self chosen. So its both a blessing and a curse at the same time to feel everything so very deeply. Be sure that in the end you must be your own "Hero" because everyone else try to save themselves so be well aware that life's biggest battles are fought alone.

Now I find scars attractive, I find flaws beautiful..



getting to know!!!

most favorite saying...

"Detachment is not that you should own Nothing but Nothing should own you"

                                                                                                                 Hazrat Ali(R.A)

rule book...

Never ever handover a rule book to the people you love, You must love them for who they are!!!

sarcasm...

He asked: What's the most sarcastic part?
She replied:
The sarcastic part is not the feeling of loneliness or the darkness that fills you despite the looming pain of emptiness...
The sarcastic part was the realization that you have lost yourself completely sinking in as you lay awake at 3 am because you lost the ability to sleep and you can't even cry because you don't even care...

 

"I BURN MYSELF IN THE FIRE OF MY OWN THOUGHTS"

A FANTASY...

May be we are all stories. Each and everyone a different character, waiting for the reader, A perfect one...The one who's genre is

"WHAT YOU ARE"...



me...

I am a kind of girl who lives in her fantasy world full of fairy tales though, who believes that, miracles do happen, who find beauty in nature, who used to wish on a dandelion, who pray while seeing a shooting star; above awl my favorite fairy tale is beauty and the beast.All the girls used to watch it and wanted a prince but what i dreamed of is the Beast and the Library...:P

 

illusion...

Sometimes people do not want to hear the TRUTH because they do not want their illusions destroyed!!!

Magic...;)

Let the WORDS wave their wand and do the "MAGIC"....<3